birthday

I am happy. I got a meaningful present. It breaks my heart.

I knew a line from this song in another lifetime.

"I know the pieces fit cause I watched them fall away
mildewed and smoldering
fundamental differing

pure intention juxtaposed
will set two lovers' souls in motion
disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
the light that fueled our fire
then has burned a hole between us
so we cannot see to reach an end
crippling our communication.

I know the pieces fit cause I watched them tumble down
no fault
none to blame
it doesn't mean I don't desire to
point the finger
blame the other
watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces back together
rediscover communication.

The poetry that comes from the squaring off between

And the circling is worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.

There was a time that the pieces fit
but I watched them fall away.
Mildewed and smoldering
strangled by our coveting
I've done the math enough
to know the dangers of our second guessing.
Doomed to crumble unless we grow
and strengthen our communication

cold silence has a tendency
to atrophy any sense of compassion

between supposed lovers
between supposed brothers.

And I know the pieces fit."